So Nat and I have been haphazardly trying to get pregnant for a year or so. We never have used protection for last 5 years except for short stint of birth control. I am not desperate to get pregnant, somedays I am not sure I even want to be. Its clear that pregnancies and deaths come in threes. I dont know why but it always seems to happen like that. I found out one of nats close friends are expecting...then I found out a girl we study with at uni is pregnant, so in the back of my head I was hoping to be the third. We had timed it pretty spot on this month based on temperatures etc. So today I saw a Facebook post today confirming the third and my heart sunk a bit. Although there is no confirmation that I am not---I lost a little hope when I found out.
Honestly it would be horrible timing in one respect and great in another. Could bring the baby home for wedding but would most likely have to drop last semester and not graduate in July. I have not been preparing myself with prenatals and folic acid. I have not quit smoking and I am still not at my ideal weight, all things I want to accomplish before falling pregnant but part of me wants it.
Maybe one day it will happen. It not I guess we will just have to figure that out.
chrissi alice